I stand alone:

Have you ever come to a place where you finally stop and it's like nothing seems right? As if your senses were turned, off and you are seeing as if for the first time with your eyes. You were blindfolded and now it has been taken off and you didn't even know it was there. You look around and where you stand you told yourself you would never be, you refused this path and now you are in the heart of it. So far from who you truly are, you feel so hopeless! You are not what you wanted to or imagined you would be. All your convictions are still tugging harder than ever before yet they are not evident in your life any longer. You push them down, deny them and let moments of action go by. One "little" compromise after the other...it's just this once...it's not that big of an issue...I'm strong, I can handle it...my heart is right...all these thoughts creep in. However, just as a seed is planted in ready soil if given water WILL grow. What seed are you allowing to be planted in your garden? Are you watering a seed that will bare nourishing fruit? Do you feel like in so many areas of your life you have compromised and have lied to yourself, making yourself believe that you are fine and all you do you do to the best of your ability? (Aside from occassion.) In reality you were/are conforming and changing for the worst in very vital parts of your life. Blending in with everyone else and sinking below when you were/are called to stand up and step above. In the end what other people think, say, what they do or even become will not matter. When I stand before my King, I stand alone! No one to my right to pass the blame and no one to my left to ask for the next excuse. If I act out of fear of the applaud of my peers I tell my Father, they are more important than Him. If I believe the lies that are spoken to me, I tell my Father that His words do not matter, they are worthless. When I let my circumstances overwhelm me and I lose hope, I deny the cross and tell my Father it is not enough. If I'm not living, driven with purpose to further The Kingdom, what am I living for? If I fade into the lethargy just like the other then what is the meaning of my existence?